Thursday, August 25, 2011

I Wasn't Prepared to Die at 23

It was February 5, 2011 (Saturday).



Oh yes, that was the day I was waiting for: the Concepcion get away with my cousin Arnette and my co-nurses at the hospital. Everybody was excited for my post birthday celebration.

We left Sta. Barbara at around 7:45am, the six of us: Arnette, Tina , Rhea, Tata, Albert and me. Jezreel and Rush were to meet us at Tagbak terminal where the buses for oncepcion are situated. Off we took the 2.5 hours bus ride ready for adventure.

Nong Jimmy, who owns our hired pump-boat, together with his wife, Nang Badiding and daughter Twinkle were already at the port when we arrived since I called them upon arriving in Sara terminal. As usual, the view was picturesque with Mt. Manaphag towering among the other islands. I'm thankful that the weather was good there for it was raining from Ajuy to Sara when we passed by earlier that morning. Great! No rain, no big waves will perfectly suit us, I thought.

The 20-minute pump-boat ride was fine. Nang Badiding and I were talking about the other islands to my companions. I ahppen to know about this family last September 2010 when I went island hopping  in Concepcion for 3 days with Arnette and two other friends. We hired Nong Jimmy's pump-boat and his family were hospitable to the four of us.



At last, we were nearing Bulobadiangan island where the infamous Sandbar Island resort is situated. We could see th sandbar covered with water for it was hight tide that time (noon time). Off we go, unloaded our belongings. I'm so glad to see my friends happy. They liked the place as I've expected. This was my 3rd time in the island and my 5th in Concepcion and I never grew tired of going there. Concepcion's islands are my haven, my ultimate get away when I have time and money. i love the town and it's people for they are warm, welcoming and hospitable. I am actually in love with the town and is promoting it's tourism to other people. Now, I'm back for the 5th time, with more friends who have never been to this wonderful place.


Sunday, May 1, 2011

MAY is Mine!

I started the month of May right: woke up early, smelled the fresh air on our way to the beach. Just as we've arrived there, Langga called from Brazil. What a surprise! :) I wish I could spill it but I can't. Haha. I'm very happy and excited! I have so many plans for this month. I shouldn't spill yet, I shouldn't! :)
AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH! HAHHHHHHHAHHHAAA! :DDDD



We talked over the phone while the morning sea breeze caressed my cheeks. It felt like he just gave me sweet butterfly kisses on my face, my heart couldn't be more delighted. All I could see is paradise.
 

I miss him so. 


Hey, I just wrote here for a sort of remembrance for I should love this day and the rest of the days coming up. :)
Can't stop smiling. Omigosh. :)))

The last time I went to the beach was February 6. Islands actually. This family outing is unplanned and we just ended up in Oton. Would you believe that I can't remember the last time that I swam in the beaches of Iloilo, specifically in this area? I don't feel like swimming in a black-sand beach, I'm not used to it. It's different. 
However, I had fun and ate a lot AGAIN. The intense heat of the sun wasn't a hindrance. Afterall, people go to the beach because it's summer like hell and to beat the heat, we swim and have fun in the sun. :)


damu tao! 




May is mine! :))) BASTA. 

*happy, need I say more? :)

Saturday, April 23, 2011

Rain Predictions



I woke up this morning with my head pounding. Everybody's busy for today's reunion and this annoying headache is making me feel sick. I felt the same way yesterday (I took analgesic right away so that the pain will be lesser) and I know it's going to rain today or on Monday. I just know. I've had this since high school-- migraines and headaches preceding rain. Most of the time. I have realized this when I was in 4th year high school that whenever  headaches would attack me and at the same day or next, there would be rain. I remember texting my classmates to bring umbrellas to school and even would bet to some about rain coming. Haha.

While they are busy with the chores at home, plus relatives coming over, I slept in my aunt's room to ease my burden away. I feel bad and irritated that I just wanted to be alone. I had a nap, oh yeah at least I had some nap. I was awakened by my cousin to bring the keys to the net shop. Huh. Nice, I had a clean get away. I wanted to leave the house anyway. I didn't want to see a lot of people today. I wanted to be alone or surf the net or just write or blog or something. 

Voila! The grounds are wet, it actually drizzled! I'm right. Told you it's gonna rain. The best part is that after the rain, my migraine goes away too. As long as it doesn't rain, the pain in my head won't be gone. It's been like this since forever. May this be a blessing or a curse, I've learned to live up with this. I dont let my migraine eat me but sometimes it just hurts a lot that I really have to take some medications and have a nap. It helps of course.

Anyway, here comes the rain again as I write this. Heavier rain this time. Omigod! I imagine chaos in the house right now because the buffet table is at the garage and there are a lot of people who came for the reunion. Tsk.

And you know what? I also know what type of rain it will be. Really. How? With the intensity and the kind of pain of my headache. Call me crazy or something but this is true. 

If the pain is throbbing and very painful, it would be just a drizzle (talithi, as we call it in Ilonggo) or there would be Nimbus clouds on the sky but it won't actually rain, just the clouds turning black. This is the kind of pain and rain that I LOATH because the pain sucks big time.
Nimbus clouds = super headache

However, if I feel dizzy and my head's kinda heavy, the rain will be heavy. I always pray that the rain will be heavy because the pain isn't that much. When others are praying that it won't rain hard, I pray the other way around. Why would I want a drizzle? It's killing me slowly, wicked blasted drizzles.
I love this kind of rain--cats and dogs 

If you ask me how do I feel when storms and typhoons happen? Nothing. No headaches. Nada. I'd rather wish for a typhoon. Seriously. 

I happen to see a Psychology journal back in college and learned that my headache and migraine is caused by the change in humidity. I haven't dug deeper though. So I searched the web about my rain headaches and found out that it has a scientific explanation after all.

So here it goes:
If you think about it, people have been associating their physical and medical conditions with the weather forever. How often have you heard someone predict rain on the way because of a flare up in their arthritis or sciatica? As it turns out, there is physical correlation with the condition of the body and the level of barometric pressure in the atmosphere. 

One theory regarding the correlation between migraine headaches and barometric pressure is that the severe rise or drop in pressure that occur during a significant weather change cause the blood vessels in the brain to constrict or to dilate. Changes in the expansion of the cranial blood vessels has long been believed to be a leading contributing factor to the cause of migraine headaches, but the possibility that a change in barometric pressure can actually cause this constriction and expansion is a theory that has been more recently considered. While not all scientists currently support this theory, or in fact, support the correlation between migraine headaches and barometric pressure at all, most health care professionals I have spoken with who work with migraine headache sufferers absolutely believe that a connection exists between the changes in atmospheric pressure and the occurrence of their patients’ migraines. 

Another theory that has been posed to me regarding the questions surrounding barometric pressure and its effects on migraine headaches is that the change in pressure in the atmosphere may also cause the cranial fluid in the brain to expand, placing more pressure on the bones of the cranium and on the brain itself. 

Finally, there is a theory that the change in atmospheric pressure may actually affect the electrical activity of the brain. In a study conducted by a group of researchers at Jefferson Medical College in Philadelphia, it was determined that when compared with normal individuals, electrical activity in the migraine victims' brains, as measured by an electroencephalogram, was less organized and reached a higher intensity during the weather shifts 

SOURCE: (http://www.personalmd.com/altmedicine_update1.shtml)

So that goes the story of my headaches. Why I can predict rain and actually feel so much pain (depends on the kind of rain--crazy!). I feel cursed at times but somehow I feel blessed because I know when to bring an umbrella (can't say MY umbrella because  I don't have one, I hate umbrellas).

Another thing that's weird is that whenever I'm going anywhere, the rain stops for a while just right in time for me to arrive at my destination--home or something. This happens most of the time. I swear.
I'm bout to go home now. And yes, you guessed it right. The rain has just stopped. :)

I haven't had my breakfast and lunch. I cant wait to go home and pig out. It's Easter Sunday after all and let's celebrate! Banquet, here I come! :)

What Went Wrong

I skipped lunch today. Here am I blogging again but hey, this isn't the reason why I missed lunch. I've just realized it's about 4 already. Damn, I'm actually hungry. I can hear the snakes in my tummy hissing as if they're all about to go on  rally against me starving them. Oh. I mean, myself.

They are all busy at home preparing for tomorrow's grand family reunion. I was actually cleaning the stairs when aunt asked if I could be here at the net shop for Richard will have to accompany my cousin to the municipal hall to get some tables and chairs. Neat. Nice escape from chores and hooray, I've emailed Gabby already! :)

But 3 hours have passed and I'm still here at the shop. I'm actually hungry. Speaking of  food and weight, I browsed some of my albums in Facebook and compared my photos. OMG! I've only gained 2.9 kgs (haha.not 3!) but I look so FAAAAAAAAAT! Fat ass. Darn. So here the photo goes:
This is unbelievable. With my short hair now, I look fatter. I guess. Oh no.

So what went wrong? I EAT A LOT. I eat 2-3 cups of rice per meal. Yes, you had read it right. PER MEAL. That doesn't include my morning, afternoon and midnight snacks. I don't have time to exercise or even jog. I'm actually lazy to get up early!

Huh. Fat on summer. Should I work my way to get my tummy back? Like this:
Okay. im fat. So what? I want my tummy to be happy. haha. But seriously, I'm planning to shed off some fats.
Good luck to me.

And here comes Richard, I can go home now. I hope they're done with the salad. I'm having my lunch and dinner-- LUNNER.:) I'm gonna eat. Diet another day. AGAIN.

Friday, April 22, 2011

Faerie Wedding

I came across this 'wedding' on Kiss the Groom site and I fell in love with everything about it: the setting and design by TriciaFountaine (I wana meet her for real and let her design my wedding too! haha), photography by Elizabeth Messina--I'm out of words.

I'm so in love with it that I'm sharing this to you. Have fun viewing and i know you'll be amazed too.

the bride and groom











And so the Priestess officiated the wedding. :)














Now, I'm loving faeries too!

For the complete photo gallery, please click : FAERIE WEDDING

ciao. :)

Thursday, April 21, 2011

the exact words




I happen to see this lyrics in one of my favorite weddimg photogrphy sites and I just love it! The exact words I'd say to Gabby. :) I MISS HIM SO MUCH and I'll be waiting.



Love me tender,
Love me sweet,
Never let me go.
You have made my life complete,
And I love you so.
Love me tender,
Love me true,
All my dreams fulfilled.
For my darlin I love you,
And I always will.
Love me tender,
Love me long,
Take me to your heart.
For its there that I belong,
And well never part.
Love me tender,
Love me dear,
Tell me you are mine.
Ill be yours through all the years,
Till the end of time.

-Elvis Presley


I made my room a room on Maundy Thursday ♥


I woke up early today (slept around 2am) so I only got 5.5 hours of sleep AGAIN. I've been sleeping late since like forever. Or should I say, I sleep at the wee hours of morning. I don't wake up late though for I'd surely have a headache for the rest of the day. I'd rather wake up early.


We were supposed to go to Guimaras, Balaan Bukid to be exact since today is Maundy Thursday. It rained early in the morning and around 9am, the sun is scorching hot. Aunt said Joy doesn't want to go anymore because of the weather thus, we don't have a driver (yes, my 17 year old cousin is the one driving for us most of the time for I only drive motorcycles). I hate being disappointed but I don't let this feeling eat the crap out of me. So I ate a hearty meal with a cup of coffee while talking to Lola and Nang She about the 70's and 80's time where P1 is a huge amount already. Goodness. But hey, I like listening to these stories! Good old times in the past. haha. 


So I had my meal and decided to clean my room instead. If I say that my room is a mess, it would be an understatement. My clothes and shoes are piled in different areas of the room. I wonder why I keep on folding and arranging my clothes and just throw them on my bed every time I dress up as if I'm always in a hurry. Useless. This is one thing I hate about myself: I can't always pull out or get my clothes without making all the rest a mess. I'm not used to preparing my clothes ahead whenever I'll be going somewhere. What I ALWAYS do is take a bath and scramble my clothes, try them on and choose whatever goes out with my mood or the weather. *sigh* I actually try my best not to do this but I can't help it. Old habits die hard.


I posted on my facebook account this: "My room is a mess, more like a snake's lare. So Im making my room a room on Maundy Thursday. *little sacrifice" --Sacrifice indeed and I bathed in dust and sweat. Grrr.


I cleaned my windows and changed my curtains. White lace this time. It's weird, white for a room's curtain. Oh oh. I love dark curtains in rooms for I like the ambience, lesser light makes me more comfortable.
My bed had to be re-arranged for Auntie Lhadie will be coming home from Manila next week and she'll sleep in the room (one of the reasons why i had to clean it) with the kids. 


I still have to change my beddings!
The books and journals that I've been hoarding had to be neatly arranged of course and the dresser too.
I opened a site yesterday and saw a sample of a wedding bouquet made of crepe paper, it looked nice that I some flowers and put in a glass mug. HAHA. I miss artworks. :)


  
Here's the crepe and Japanese paper flowers that I made (and Im going to make more while watching my favorite shows in TLC tonight! )


And my dresser looks better with all the stuffs arranged. Now, this is a lady's room. 



I'm so happy to see my room neat and I'm so proud of myself.Haha. The real challenge is not cleaning my room but keeping it clean rather. I swear, I'll do my best to keep my room a room for I'm still a lady despite my tomboy ways. :)

I had my lunch, a fast lunch as I will call it and headed to Noreen Internet Station that my cousin Toto owns, named after his daughter Noreen--our kulilit bulilit. Richard is not here so I'm the admin this afternoon. Suits me well, I can email Gabby and blog too! I'm glad we'll be closing early tonight, 8pm for the "Pamalandong" as what we call it here. Because today is Maundy Thursday and Good Friday tomorrow, it's just proper to close early tonight and whole day tomorrow so that people will have time to pray and actually realize the real essence of this special days. That Christ died for us to redeem our sins. 

Oh. On my way to the shop, I passed by one of the 14 stations of the cross and people help each other in order that "kapiya" will be finished on time for tomorrow's procession. 
And just now, Auntie Nonette dropped by here to give me my merienda, lots of bibingka--a local food popular during Holy Week. I'm actully eating while typing and at the same time, chatting with my friend Jenny.
And my father texted me that they have boiled banana and grilled corn for merienda at home in the farm. I so miss home! I miss my parents and my brother. 

So I posted on my facebook (I have this habit of posting and updating my status, cant help it. I ALWAYS update. A habit, okay?)):
"May bunga na mais nmun kg kalabasa. I WASNT HOME THAT LONG?? :(( gaaaaad. Tani Lunes na!"
"I CANT WAIT TO GO HOME SA UMA! It's been almost 2 weeks. :/"

I guess I've written a lot already. It's now time to email my langga and view my favorite wedding and photography sites! :) 

God bless us all.
-xoxo

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

I miss Concepcion

I ULTIMATELY MISS CONCEPCION!

Yes, big time that it sucks not to be in the islands of Concepcion this summer. I don't know when I'll be able go back there after that little incident last 5th of February. *sigh*

I miss the pristine turquoise waters of Sandbar Resort in Bulobadiangan Island.





I miss the wonderful view at the top of Hampangan Rock in Tambaliza.


and the amazing sunrise there too!

I miss the cliffs in Agho Island and the open sea behind it.





and its crystal clear serene waters too.



I love the sunset in Bulobdiangan, I long to see it again.


The magnificient and towering Mt. Manaphag in Pan de Azucar never fail to make me feel in awe.



I hope to see ou soon beloved Concepcion. :(